My logic seem like useless

I try to apply the rule of "No Sacrifice No Value", but seem like I'm fail maybe you will no feel its value is high even though you sacrifice more sometime. I still like her very much even though I sacrifice for other quite much, it's quite no logic for me =(

The day she go back to her University and I go back to mine

I'm at airport on Kuching. This afternoon I came to here because my friends was going back to their University including her. As what I expect, I didn't say anything to her since I didn't have the chance to do so. It's also a good thing, at least this is something follow my logic. Hope I happy for it in the future , wish I still have the chance to be with her. And now I'm still here wait for the time for me to go back to my university arrive. Don't know I should happy or sad.^^

Why? Told me this.... I feel like wanna cry T.T

Why????? Wanna tell me she had feeling with me sometime. What should I do now????? I feel like wanna cry now...... Why wanna let me now? I was trying hard to keep my feeling with her in my heart. Why made my feeling come out again? Felt like wanna tell her my feeling just now but my logic tell me the timing is wrong. ARHHHH..... My heart is hurt to give up the chance but is it will succeed if I didn't give up? I don't know. I think I will use my logic to make a decision but don't know I can do it or not?????

Clear Mind Now

My mind is clear what I want in love after I had been talked with her. I believe everything can be clear if we use our mind to figure out what we want and what do happen actually. I wanna to be with her but not now because I haven't got my confidence. I just wanna treat her as normal. I hope I can find my confidence before the chance for me to with her hasn't flown away. I know it might be at least take two years time but PLEASE DON'T LET ME LOSE THE CHANCE..... SHE REALLY THE ONE I WANNA BE WITH HER.

Move To The Wrong Way

I would like to say I wrong before this. I thought she scared of love just because not confident because of never but I was wrong, she is not confident because of feel guilty. See how stupid am I. What should I do if she feel accept me if sorry to others who love her? Someone please tell me ARRRRHHHH...........

The Sky Is Big

The sky is very big. I think our love should be like that also. There are so many people on the world. Why we need to stay on one point only. This is what my logic tell me, but I'm not sure how far I can do it because I feel I can do it sometime but sometime not. Should I stay on a point? I have unknown answer for this question for this moment maybe next moment I will know ^^

Hopefully It's Useful

Sad to say that she reject me to have a lunch again but this time I don't really feel sad because I didn't really plan to have the lunch haha.. I just wanna explain something during this lunch but I just called her to explain. Hopefully she get what I wanna say.

My 21 years old birthday

14/06/2009, Sunday is my birthday. I didn't sleep at the morning since the day before that. I went to find her start from 12 am but I daren't to find her directly so I wait until around 4am just had the chance to talk with her. I think I was so stupid since I was waiting for a long period then just talked with her for a moment. The I went back and took a moment back then went to play badminton with my friends. I was sleeping at afternoon for tonight dinner with my group of friends to celebrate my birthday. I think I was happy because the dinner and the present from they.

The date fly away

12/06/2009, Friday night I felt sad because I couldn't have a date with here on the next day because she said she has something to busy with and cannot wake up early. Luckily my sadness not too deep because I guess it since early. I don't how sad am I if I did full with hope to know this result. I think it must be very hurt.

Woke Up Early For Fun

07/06/2009,Monday morning I went to cycling with my friend this morning around 6 am. We were cycling to her house. I consciously find the hard way to move ^^

Besides that, that day I felt happy because I was getting close with her since I had been given a chance to teach her swimming.

Happy birthday, Miss Lizard. Believe as a friend I really wish you all the best. Good luck and have a nice birthday.

Final Exam Result Of My First Year Second Semester

I felt sad with my bad result because I got 3/7 C+ for my result. It's unexpected result. Don't know is because I was too confident or what. I really a bit hard to accept this kind of bad result even though I still can get 3 above for my pointer but it's really not what I want, it's worse. Haiz.... But what can I do since the result cannot change already. Look forward for the next semester. Gambateh... ^^

I believe I can.

If really need me to wait for you for two years and more. I 'm willing to do it. How long is two years and more, it's more than 730 days, 17520 hours, 1051200minutes, 63072000seconds. It's no a big amount for me. Although I know you maybe don't accept after this period but I'm willing to try. Believe me, I can do it since I never wanna give up. Is it waiting my time if you aren't going to accept after two year? My answer is no, at least I have my point of life during this period. Please don't stop me for waiting you.

I'm still wondering which is the best way in my love journey

I'm still wondering which is the best way and what is the choice for in love journey. Should I take a risk to tell her I Love Her and the result might be either success or I lost a friend. It's very difficult for me to make the decision. If I don't try then I will never know the result. And if I keep on thinking here, I'm wasting my time and maybe will miss up the timing. What should I do?

I knew I won't fail my Titas today

Actually I was worrying about I would fail my Titas before today even I look like don't ever worry.

Today the result had come out, before I click the button to know the result, I was still very worrying but after I did click on it, I feel very happy because I pass for my Titas ^o^

My sport day after a long time didn't sport.

On 17/05, Sunday morning I went to Winner Court play badminton with my friends. I was playing for two hours continually. I realised that I really didn't sport for sometime, my stamina had decreased already. Then at afternoon about 5pm I went to Stampak Swimming with my friends. I did break my own record which I was swimming 3km continually which I did only swim 1km only before. Actually it's boring for me to swim for that long time. My friends also said me "Xiao". For surely I felt painful after that day but I still go to play badminton at the morning on the day after that. I like to be busy because this make me won't feel alone and think something unhappy ^^

The Girl

This is the first time I wouldn't wanna put picture because I don't feel like post a girl picture especially she is the one very unique for me so don't wanna let others know lol... Joking

Today I learn the theory " No Sacrifice No Value" which I mention in my other blog- http://kiocjw.blogspot.com/, I just realize that sometime maybe because of this reason I would think I like a girl so much but maybe not .

I just very sure something, that's I thought I can get "A girl" out from my heart easily but seem like I was wrong or really because of the theory "No Sacrifice No Value". Anyway, when I meet "A girl" again and I thought she is never in my heart again, I just reliazze that my logic was not logic before.

This time I'm not only feeling that I still have a strong feeling with her but I realize that I will still like her without care how she become in the future. Fat, old or something else ? It's not importance anymore.

I felt like wanna tell her yesterday when I had the chance but I didn't do it since I wasn't sure what happen to me from my logical thinking and I didn't hope our friendship will fly away because of my stupid act.

I think I better put a picture but put the nonsense picture.

I change back my blog template to basic one

Since my layout not friendly user so I change back to the basic one again ^^

Crazy CJW

I'm crazy today... No no.... I should say that I'm crazy since yesterday.. You know what time I wrote this post? 5am loh... I start to edit my blog since yesterday evening. Can you see that how crazy am I. I stop here because wanna sleep already.. hehe

I won't say my work is prefect

I believe that nothing is prefect.

I would never say that my work is prefect from my heart.

Why?

Because if a work is prefect that means is cannot be more better anymore.

So I hope my work will be more better than the work I had done.